Zapped

I‘ve been zapped. Today was my first radiation treatment — one down and about 32 more to go. It was a pretty uneventful treatment, really. I was in my reclined position with no shirt or bra and just a pillow case resting on my chest. The pillow case was positioned so that my left breast was exposed. My head rested on my very own personal mold, and I had to breathe using an assisted breathing device (a plastic tube). Clips were placed on my nose so that I could only breathe out of my mouth and into the tube. Two therapists got me set up and then left the room. Then a voice came over a speaker and said, “When you are ready, take a deep breath and hold it.” I have to hold my breath for about 15 seconds while the treatment machine delivers the radiation. Then the voice says, “You may breathe.” The reason I have to hold my breath is because my heart is located behind my left breast. To minimize the exposure to my heart, I hold my breath which moves my heart out of the way while the radiation occurs. After about four different zaps (I hold my breath for each one), I was done. Besides a machine moving around me, I could not tell anything was happening. I didn’t hear anything or see anything or feel anything. It was less invasive than a tanning bed. I may see some effects with time — apparently most people experience burning or blistering skin and some people report fatigue as a side effect.

I do have a few more markings on my skin — blue ones this time. Eventually, I will not have marker all over my skin. But during the first few treatments this is necessary for lining me up correctly with the machine.

Blue must be the color of the day. I got a blue card at my appointment which I will use to automatically check in for radiation each day. I slide the bar code of my blue card under a machine and then wait. Then I hear my name announced over a speaker. Then I walk to waiting area “C” until my designated therapists come for me. I will see the same four therapists until my treatment is complete.

Until my treatment is complete, I also see my radiation oncologist once per week so she can check on me — mainly to see how my skin fares through the ordeal. I saw her today and all is well so far. And I learned from her that about 90% of breast cancer recurrences happen in the same general area as the first cancer — so the purpose of radiation is to attack the local area, while the chemo attacks cells that may have gotten away from the breast and landed somewhere else.

I go back again tomorrow — and the next day and the next day and the next day, until the end of May rolls around. I hear that I have to look at this phase of treatment as a job in order to not burn out completely. Fortunately, this job only lasts for 6 1/2 weeks. And then I can get back to my other job — full-time mom — without this distraction.

Jacki Donaldson

8 Comments

  1. Jane Donaldson
    Apr 11, 2005

    How informative it is to read your weblog, Jacki. I never realized how radiation is done. Of course, I never thought one of my own would be having it. Each day you get through is a triumph. You’ve taught us all so very much. UTTS +++ Jane

  2. Dell
    Apr 12, 2005

    I didn’t know how they did it either. I do like that you get the same therapists the whole time. I guess it adds a modicum of comfort.

  3. Kara
    Apr 12, 2005

    WOW, what an great description. I pray this is an easier road than chemo. Hang in there, my friend!

  4. April
    Apr 13, 2005

    So glad this phase seems to be a little better for you. Maybe all your sickness is over and once you complete this “job”, you will get that “mom” job back. You deserve a little rest and relaxation and positive family time with your boys. Keep your head up and plug on through. It will all be over soon.
    Love-April

  5. Page
    Apr 13, 2005

    Hi Jacki, sorry I haven’t written in a while. Wow you’ve been going through a lot. you
    are so strong!! I wish I could come down there and give you a hug right now. I’m really
    proud of you as my friend!! and I know everyone else is too, especially your family and your 3 boys. Please say hello to John for me. Hang in there and I’ll check back in on you again soon. I’m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Page

  6. Monica Brasington
    Apr 17, 2005

    Jacki,
    Every time I read your journal I am inspired by your courage and positive energy. Your journey makes me want to relish each day-the little things, like Andrew’s sticky kisses, the phlox blooming on Parker Road, the gorgeous weather we’ve been having. Thank you for having the strength to share your story with others. You are going to be OK. Actually, better than OK-you’re going to be great b/c you’re never going to take the little things for granted again, even for a second. I heard a song the other day on the radio about a person diagnosed with a life-threatening illness. In it, he says that he “loved deeper, and he talked sweeter” and it made me cry and think about all of the hard times that you and your family are going through. I believe in the power of positive thinking and the power of prayer. I am doing both for you right now. Keep positive and stay strong.
    Monica

  7. Megan O'Connor
    Apr 17, 2005

    Hi Jacki – I’m a friend of Adriene – I had a lump removed last year (I’m 26) I was so scared and shocked. I am so impressed and amazed by Adriene’s strength and your strength and your willingness to share with us- so that if it ever happens to us we can be strong and think of you. You are in my thoughts, be brave.

  8. Nicole
    Apr 18, 2005

    You are so darn brave, hang in there. I am so glad to hear this is going better and you can tell from your writting you are in much better spirits!!! I am doing the Race for the Cure in a few weeks, May 14th. A bunch of Phi Gam’s are getting together in Columbus to do the walk. I plan to were your name in Celebration!!!! I will have to take a photo and send it your way!!! I am so proud of you!

    Nicole

Submit a Comment