Today, I Got a Call

Regarding the the unofficial good news I’d received about my MRI results on Tuesday, I wrote: (But you know what? There’s a teeny tiny part of my brain thinking that someone might call and say, “nevermind, there is something wrong,” and, in the spirit of being totally honest, I must admit this.) Well, someone did call today, a […]

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Seven Years Ago

.Seven years ago yesterday. On November 23, I had a biopsy. A large needle was placed in my breast and a piece of the lump was pulled out. The surgeon had a hard time getting a piece, however, because it moved around so much. He said this was a good sign, the movement. He sent […]

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Live and Learn, MRI Style

So, here is what you should know about MRI: Your MRI will pick up everything. Great if you have certain types of breast cancer, because they will likely be detected, and this could save your life. Bummer if it’s not cancer, because you’ll be forced to chase it down like it is cancer in order […]

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MRI Monday

The re-do MRI is over, and I fully expect I will get a call in the next day or so from a medical someone who will declare it normal. I really do believe this, even though there were machine technical difficulties this morning requiring a start and stop and start again, an interruption to fix […]

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Surgeon Says

Today, I met with a breast surgeon to review what’s happened over the past almost-week. To recap: there was the annual MRI. then the MRI report featuring the awful words “malignancy considered.” then three days of pure worry (and lots of well wishes and prayers). then an ultrasound that prompted docs to utter the happy […]

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Mastectomy — Do It? Or Too Drastic?

I’ve had breast cancer. I’ve had a lumpectomy (tumor was taken, but breast was not). I’ve had chemo, radiation, and more drug therapy. I’ve survived for seven years. You’d think I’d be fine for the long haul. But last Thursday — a suspicious MRI, a report that read “malignancy considered,” and a three-day wait for […]

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Does Cancer Cancel School?

Gotta love how kids keep things light. Ten-year-old Joey asked me the other day, “If you have cancer, do I have to go to school?” “Yes,” I told him. He continued: “If you have a really big surgery, do I have to go to school?” “Yes,” I told him. This went on for a few […]

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Benign

Docs have talked, and the call at this time is “benign.” No need for biopsy right now. Follow-up MRI at end of month, and, if it shows concerns, we’ll take it from there. <sigh>.

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Ultrasound Not Alarming

Initial news is good: no mass, tumor, lump — ultrasound showed a bunch of dense and enhanced tissue + a lot of shadows. What does that mean? Not sure, so ultrasound doc will follow up with doc who read MRI, and she will compare with my previous MRIs to determine what exactly has changed and […]

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Suspended State

“I’m sure you’ll be in a suspended state until you know.” Suspended state. That’s it. Exactly. Credit for these words, which are so fitting for my situation, goes to Anna. She’s my boss, a faraway friend, someone I’ve never even seen in person — that is so strange, isn’t it? The virtual world makes it […]

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Quick MRI Results Not a Good Sign

1. Incomplete MRI of right breast with new conglomerate of small enhancing foci in the retroareolar region and non-mass-like enhancement of posterior breast as detailed above. Malignant and infectious/inflammatory etiologies are considered. A second look with ultrasound is recommended to evaluate for discreet lesion that would be amenable to biopsy. If ultrasound in unsuccessful, MRI-guided […]

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MRI No. 5

I had my fifth post-cancer MRI today. I get one every year, right at this time. It’s just a routine thing, a method of peeking at the insides of my breasts to determine if cancer is coming back or not. I don’t know what today’s results will reveal — gotta wait for my oncologist to […]

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50/50 Does Cancer Good

I don’t watch movies with a very critical eye, and mostly, I don’t really care much if what I see on the big screen matches reality. I’m just happy if films make me think, laugh, learn, and sometimes cry. Tonight, though, I saw 50/50 (about a young man who is diagnosed with cancer and must endure […]

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October. Over.

October is almost over, which means (a) my house is filled with candy, and the ultimate challenge is upon me: to eat or not to eat, (b) the time will soon change, and I will begin hating how it gets dark so early, (c) the onslaught of pink that has probably been gagging you for […]

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Survivor’s Guilt

Sometimes, I feel guilty for surviving cancer because some people are not so lucky. Why did I get a break when so many, like Amy, did not? There’s nothing fair about the way it happened, the way Amy died just 15 months after a breast cancer diagnosis seemingly similar to mine. She heard the same […]

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1 in 8 Is Not Every Woman’s Risk

I’m not sure why I didn’t fully understand the whole 1 in 8 thing before this week, but, clearly, I did not. Because when my friend who happens to spend his days hunting down a cure for cancer told me that the 1 in 8 chance of getting breast cancer is a lifetime risk and […]

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The First Two Months

This is pretty much what happens in the two months following a breast cancer diagnosis: Mammogram. Ultrasound. Needle-guided biopsy. Echo heart scan. Full-body PET scan. MRI. Muga heart scan. BRCA genetic testing. Numerous blood tests. Portacath inserted in my chest. 3 rounds of chemo. 2 bone marrow generating Neulasta injections. Hair loss. Insomnia. Exhaustion. Nausea/vomiting. […]

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